Talking About Life And Death
Today I had a short conversation with my friend who is going through a rough time in her family. This conversation made me think the time when our mom died 2016 suddenly. Well, I know my mom was afraid of dying so much that she did not go to the doctor. Well, I know it is crazy but that is how many of us do. Not knowing is better choice. Today I understood or I got a word for her death and that is a trauma. It is trauma to me. I can’t stop imaging how horrible the feeling, how afraid she was in that moment when she was about to die to a heart attack. It is very painful and almost impossible to deal with. Not a pleasent topic I know.
But this is how I began my career with flowers. Dealing my loss and sorrow.
I have been thinking this a lot during the years and I have decided that the day when I die I don’t want to leave anyone thinking how scared I was to die. Feeling quilty. I think my work with flowers is also about teaching me to accept the death. I want to learn to let go of things. Life and death they belong together and this is so obvious and literal with flowers. You can see how they grow, bloom, wilt or rot away and finally dry. It is life - in full. Death is also part of the story and that we can not choose. It just happens. For all of us.
I Told You So, 2024
Didn’t want to spoil your day but this is what I wanted to write today. My mom got a heart attack on 28.12. after X-mas. So this time of the year reminds me of her too. She loved X-mas and so do I.
xoxo
Kreetta
Here in my journal I share things and thoughts that are intriguing my mind at the moment as an artist.
They can vary a lot and I don’t have a script or plan for the next post. These are thoughts about materials, ingredients, process, light, zeitgeist, ideas - what ever comes to my mind as an artist. This is about the process and you get to hear things “behind the scenes”.
I photograph flowers, plants and mushrooms at my workspace in natural light. I design all the floral works and when the work is ready I push the button. No AI.
Thank you for reading.
